The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.
1 Samuel 16:7
I will never, ever, forget the day we shaved my head. I had read that a woman losing her hair can be just as devastating as losing a breast. I believe it. It was three weeks after chemo treatments started. It was just as hard as starting chemo.
After my hair began to fall, four of my children gathered in our bathroom as my husband cut and shaved. We did it together and we cried together.
From that point forward, there was no denying what was going on in my flesh. My outside told the story of my physical battle inside. Strangers would see me and look at me so sweetly. Their eyes said, “I’m sorry.” Some moments allowed me to forget about cancer and then I would look in a mirror, or in the faces of those around me – no hair, no lashes, fragile.
While the chemicals were taking their toll on my physical wellness and appearance, God was working on my heart.
He is beautiful like that.
He began to strip away the small, and ugly, of what was inside. He revealed, organized and prioritized. He put things right, like always.
He never does anything less.
I’ve been given a gift to see life as He does and share it with others. I have realized how fragile life is. It will always end here. It is precious and fleeting. Are there gifts more beautiful than that? I do not live this gift easily. I get caught up in the business and I have to remind myself that I have to open it every day.
Truth is, I struggle with my outward appearance still. My hair is now short, my energy dips, and I am not very strong physically. It is going to take time and energy to feel like I look “normal” again. I am often discouraged but I am alive and well in my soul. And although I am far from perfect, the bottom line is, I live for Jesus and I want to please Him. I value my time more with those I love and wish I could be with them all the time. I don’t just want to tell them about Him (some do not have ears to hear) I want LIVE Christ to them.
I want them to see Jesus in me. I want Jesus to see Himself in me.
Some of the most beautiful women I have ever met don’t have a hair on their head but they have a magnificent light in their eyes. They radiate glory because of who resides in them.
When physical sickness affects your outward appearance, pray that God will heal your body and your heart. Ask Him to show you the things that make you spiritually ill. Even when we do not think we look pleasing on the outside, our hearts will spill over with indescribable beauty.
Lord, I pray that You will speak to us about our inward appearance. Show us the ugly so we can be rid of the sin and the things that keep us from loving You completely. Help us to look beyond the outward appearance of others, and help us to see their insides, too. Take full residence in us, so that when people see us, our beauty is beyond description because they catch sight of You. You are magnificent beyond compare.
Praying you Live Like You Know,