How do You Live a Life That is Whole With Cancer?
My life is down in the dust; give me life through Your word.
I told You about my life, and You listened to me;
teach me Your statutes.
Help me understand the meaning of Your precepts
so that I can meditate on Your wonders.
I am weary from grief;
strengthen me through Your word.
Psalm 119:25-28 (HCSB)
I grieve over my cancer. So many have grieved with me; my Leader Husband, children, parents, and the Body of Christ. I have seen the grief in their eyes too, and it hurts. It has never been my cancer, it has always been ours. They have loved me that way. We are walking on a road that is filled with physical uncertainty. At times I have felt like dust, lifeless dust. I cry out to Him for life.
And He says, “Walk with Me.”
His voice is gentle and kind. I want to go with Him; I need to go with Him. He takes my hand and He walks with me. Sometimes I am unable to put one foot in front of the other. Sometimes one tiny faith step is too much. He patiently waits with me until I am ready. I talk to Him because He is my friend, and so much more.
He is my Savior.
He says, “I am making you whole and I am giving you real life”.
I know it’s true.
He is making all of us whole.
And I know the only way to be whole is to have my life in Him. Life in Him is time with Him. Through His Word He strengthens me and He gives me hope – hope of becoming the person that I am meant to be – the person He has created me to be.
It is only through this trial, this means, that I can become my whole potential. There is no other way.
My disease is not just Breast Cancer. It is pride, and selfishness, and flesh. When His Truth flows in, my disease runs out. This is where my soul begins to live whole and I am filled with life – abundant life. This is where joy and peace take up residence in my heart and I cannot help but be grateful for where I am.
Even though Jesus already knows all that you are facing, He wants for you to talk to Him and tell Him your grief. Rely on Him, and His Word, and ask Him for understanding for today. Remember what He has done for you in the past and wonder of the goodness He has shown. He is with you and He is listening.
Lord, I pray for the women who are reading this and are suffering from a diagnosis of cancer whether it is for them or someone they love. Show them Lord that you are kind and good. Give their hearts rest from the weariness of grief. Hear their cries and help them to have an understanding of your guidance. Give them faith to believe in all that you have for them and strengthen them in your mighty Word. It is in the powerful Name of Jesus I pray. Amen.
Praying you Live Like You Know,