With God, Cancer Never Wins.
…”This came about so that God’s works might be displayed in him.”
John 9:3 (HCSB)
I have never doubted the purpose of cancer. I’ve always known it was about my Savior even in the shock, fear, sadness and unknown. Everything is about Him. When diagnosed I told Jesus, “If this makes a difference in my heart, and the heart of my family, for Your glory, I will do it gladly. I want us to experience You so that we are changed forever. I do not want cancer to count for cancer. I want it to count for You!”
Cancer robbed my physical joy and many times it took my emotional joy. I still have days that are heavy and hard; the ones that try to drag me into the pit. Those are the ones I want to spend in bed all day. But I keep going, pressing into the day, because I will not let cancer win – physically, emotionally, or spiritually. I continue to force myself through the days’ requirements of having 5 children and a husband who works hard to provide.
There is always much to do and the rewards are not material ones that can be touched.
My rewards have gone ahead of me and they have been sown and grounded in hearts.
There is still a legacy to unfold.
I keep pressing because I have Joy. The real joy is Jesus and because He is always with me, I always have it. Joy is not in the circumstance, it is in the One who is with me in the circumstance.
The fullness of this joy is
Around the corner,
Where I cannot see,
Where I know I am going.
It doesn’t matter what I feel, it matters Who I know.
Time and distance can heal many things but Jesus heals wounds of the heart. Cancer hurts the places that are deep within; the ones that cannot be seen on a mammogram or a scan, the ones seen only by God. Medicine can cure an illness but Jesus cures the soul. He brings light and life where there is none.
As time passes, the difficult days are fewer and farther between and I am optimistic of a future that will rarely dwell on sickness. For now, He is still shaping the heart within. I am far from finished and I suppose that is why He continues to answer my first prayer; the one to let this portion of a life count for His glory.
Praying you Live Like You Know,