A One Year Survivor, Looking Back
Part Two of Three
As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
They make it a source of springwater;
Even the autumn rain will cover it with blessings.
Psalm 84:6 (HCSB)
I am passing through a season of deep sorrow; I am walking through the Valley of Tears. My heart is determined to not let cancer count for cancer. It will count for God. My soul, the soul of my husband, and the souls of my children need for this to matter for God.
I want to be physically healed, but even more, I want to know Jesus is who He says He is. I desperately need to know that this suffering will have eternal value. This cancer must change things. Right here. Right now.
Cancer is not formed with any attributes of Christ. It has no love, no life, no joy, no peace or comfort.
I am helpless and broken. I am ready to receive.
I am so thirsty.
Then it comes.
Living Water is released. It is Jesus Himself. The flood gate of heaven has been opened and the blessings that have been held back, for this precise moment, are loosed. I become drenched in Christ. Love showers my head, the Word fills my heart, Comfort runs down my arms, Peace soaks my legs, and my feet splash in soul Joy. I am saturated in Grace and Mercy.
The Risen Lamb of God is with me. I am walking on Holy Ground.
The All –Knowing has stored gifts away, for me, for this exact time. God knew, through cancer, He would become the significance of my life. He was always aware that the blessings would outweigh the cost.
Again, I am being made Holy.
The Gift? Heaven becomes tangible. Before now, my eternal home seemed distant, hard to grasp, and vague. God’s presence has shown me the reality of my destination. No longer do I view my life as “here” or “there”. I see it as ONE continuation. I have been given the gift of perspective. I understand my life from heaven looking back. My “here and “there” have collided and allow me to live eternally now. I am no longer confined by the condition of this world.
I am free!
By means of a despicable disease, God gave me a wisdom that I could not have received any other way.
He has set my heart on Zion!
Continue to part three of three…
I pray you Live Like You Know… where you are going.