When a Mama Feels Like She’s Lost Her Purpose
Then the One seated on the throne said, “Look! I am making everything new.”
Revelation 21:5 (HCSB)
My soul feels so thin I think I am almost invisible. It seems I am fading; fading into nothing.
My days used to be grounded in the joy of defined purpose; to meet the needs of ones too small to do for themselves.
The goal of my heart has come; they are learning to live their full potential. All that I have given up has become their gain. This pouring of my life has been more than worth it but it doesn’t seem fair that the one who gives all she has ends up with nothing.
They are learning to fly but I am left behind.
They are eager for the dreams that lie ahead but mine are, with them, stuck in the past.
They are equipped with an army of people who love them and I am alone.
Somewhere between the day I birthed them into the world, and the last argument with that teen, the joy of purpose has been lost. The need for meals, clean clothes, play dates and homemade goodies are gone. I have so much to be thankful for; children who are healthy and with a bright future and I am angry at myself because feeling robbed is the opposite of grateful.
I beg and plea for God to fill me again with the joy of purpose.
He speaks to me and says,
“I am making something new.”
“You must learn to walk before you run.”
Jesus is teaching me that entering the next season of my life is a process. I, like my children, am learning how to live full with His potential. God is pouring His life into me and teaching me the Way: the One that always overflows with joy in purpose, the One that fulfills His goal of glory.
The Truth of my life is
I am not alone. I am walking with the Savior of the world.
I am not left behind. My life is always moving toward Him.
My dreams are not in the past. The best is yet to come; the day I see His face
All that He has given up has become my gain. And the one who gives all she has ends up with everything.
Lord, I pray for myself and the mamas that are struggling to find their purpose. I pray that You will continue to pour Your life into ours and that You will find us, on our faces, seeking Your purpose. Teach us to walk so we can run and give us the comfort of knowing the best is yet to come.
I pray you Live Like You Know… where you are going.
Strength to strength,